I haven’t posted an update for a while now. To be honest, I haven’t felt like writing anything over the past few weeks. If you follow me on Instagram, you’ll know we’ve had a tough time lately as a family.

A few weeks back, we lost my lovely Nana Mary. She had advanced dementia and in the end it was honestly a blessing. Sadly just the morning after her funeral, her husband Grandpa Colin passed away peacefully in his sleep.

He was 88 and hadn’t been well lately himself, but it was such a shock to come so quickly and while we were all still emotionally raw following Nan’s funeral. The past few weeks have been some of the toughest.

It’s no surprise that I feel emotionally drained at the moment, but I haven’t felt great physically either. At my antenatal appointments, my bump has measured over where it should be. I’ve had a glucose test to check for gestational diabetes, which came back normal and we’re now waiting for a growth scan.I’ve had the worst nausea ever and some swelling ‘down there’ (no real life over here guys, it’s all the glamour!) which is really disrupting my sleep. My bump feels super tight all the time and my energy is a thing of the past. For the next few weeks, I’ll be having as much rest as possible and trying to relax my body as there’s still a way to go yet!Apart from all the crappiness, this little babe is still so active and is constantly letting me know how good the party is in there. Some of the movements are so strong, I feel like this little one could come out crawling and babbling away already!

Another weird side effect I’ve had is melasma; a skin discolouration that’s common in pregnancy. I’ve actually had it for a few years now, which may have been caused by the pill, but it’s spread a little more the past few weeks. It’s now faintly lining my top lip, as well as extra patches along my forehead, cheekbones and nose. It doesn’t bother me, in fact I quite like it. It’s a kind of sun kissed look without sitting in the sun!I’m starting my maternity leave on Monday and I’m determined to enjoy these last few weeks as much as possible. We’re going to get ourselves in gear and sort all the essentials out over the next couple of days, starting with giving Daisy’s cot a well needed lick of paint. Not long left now!

Emma x

The past few weeks have been a little up and down to say the least. In all honesty though, I think it may have all seemed a little tougher given that usually we don’t tend to have a lot of ‘drama’ and life is normally all good. By no means am I boasting, just trying to look at things positively and realise that we’re pretty lucky most of the time. In light of that, I thought I’d note down a few things making me smile this week.

Lighter Evenings

Okay, so the rain hasn’t exactly made this as good as it could be, but how lovely has it been to not be dark at 5pm?! The promise of barbecues, watering plants and paddling pools is on the horizon and I cannot wait to be out in the garden, embracing warmer weather and laughing at Daisy, who will likely be naked and looking slightly feral most evenings.

Reading

I go through phases of reading; either I struggle to get past the first chapter of anything, or I devour one book after another. Months pass between the phases, but I’m definitely in the ‘reading at every chance I get’ camp at the moment. It has always helped me to nod off to sleep and with the amount of disturbed nights I’ve had recently, it’s definitely proved better than browsing Instagram at 3am. I’m currently reading Dan Brown’s Origin, although I’m normally a grisly thriller kinda gal.

Baby Movements

I’ve blogged before about how active this little one is, but it’s really been making me smile recently. Whenever things are a little stressful or it’s just been one of those days, taking five minutes to feel and watch all those movements instantly perks me up. Every time I see my bump wriggle or feel kicks and prods, I feel incredibly lucky and in awe of how amazing the human body really is. Like, there’s a real little person in there!

Hot Cross Buns

As much as I love hot cross buns, I’m pretty sure my hips will be glad to see the back of Easter. I’ve become something of a connoisseur the last few weeks; Jon has been bringing me home all the ‘special’ flavours he’s come across. ‘Blueberry and Maple’, ‘Extra Fruity’, ‘Apple and Cinnamon’, ‘Chocolate and Fudge’… I could continue but I’m starting to salivate and I don’t want to drool on the laptop. By this point, I’m 90% hot cross bun and I fear I’ll need to wean myself off them. I can confirm though, M&S Salted Caramel and Chocolate are the best…mmm…

Daisy’s Songs

I’ve previously mentioned how much Daisy’s speech has come on in the last year and now we quite literally can’t shut her up! It’s true what they say, kids really do say the funniest things. Daisy has loved singing songs for a while now and picks nursery rhymes up so quickly. She’s regularly coming out with a verse or two of something she’s heard at school or on TV, but this week she literally made my heart burst. Sat on the settee together, she started singing ‘Rockabye Baby’ and told me she’s going to sing it to the baby! Apparently she learnt it in school and it’s THE cutest thing ever. All the mama feels! Emma x

Scan week! I’ve been so excited to see our little one’s profile again and our 20 week scan didn’t disappoint. Initially we weren’t going to take Daisy with us, given how much the sonographer needs to concentrate, but once she heard we were going to see ‘the baby on the screen’ there was no way we were leaving without her.Our sonographer was really lovely and actually did our 20 week scan with Daisy too. She just about managed to check everything needed, no thanks to an extremely wriggly baby! We didn’t find out what we are having either, so it’s definitely team yellow now!

We were told my placenta is at the back, which explains why I’m feeling so much more this time. Flutters have turned into some regular ‘kicks’, that are getting easier for Jon to feel and judging by how much movement we could see on the scan, no wonder I’m feeling lots of it already!My stomach and pelvic pains are pretty bad this week, so sleep is a much sought after luxury at the moment, which is just a little out of reach. I’m having lots of Epsom salt baths, using my pregnancy pillow every night and am struggling through some yoga, but nothing is really helping. It comes with the territory of growing a little person though, and it will all be worth it when we get to meet him or her.img_2634.jpgJon and I are going away for a weekend to Krakow shortly and there’ll be plenty of walking around, so I’d love to hear any remedies that worked for your aches and pains during pregnancy. Failing that, we’ll have to rent a wheelchair from somewhere and I’ll put Jon to work!

Emma  x

So last week started off much better; aches and pains were to a minimum, no nausea and more energy… hello second trimester, we finally meet again! I’m starting to feel those little flutters far more (as long as I’m sitting still or lying down) and no wonder; baby is the size of a croissant this week apparently. Sidenote: I LOVE the Ovia Pregnancy app! Anything that tells me the size of our baby in reference to Parisian bakery treats, is a winner for me.Unfortunately, our house quickly took a turn into germ city half way through the week and Daisy came down with a really nasty cough and cold. This quickly led to Jon being unwell too, although (touch wood) I’m germ free at the moment. I had the flu jab a couple of weeks back, so hoping that keeps me feeling good whilst the lurgy hangs around.

Spending the back end of the week and weekend with a 3 years old on my chest and lap for most of the time however, hasn’t helped those fading aches and pains. I pulled my stomach muscles badly through the night too, sitting up to get Daisy a drink or more medicine. Fingers crossed she’s through the worst of it now, and we can all get a good night’s sleep in the next few days.I had a good clear out of my wardrobe too and packed away things that aren’t going to fit me for a while now; goodbye high waisted jeans! I’ve ordered some pregnancy jeans and have one or two other ‘maternity’ bits, but for the most part I’m trying to only buy regular clothes that will see me through the next few months and can still be worn afterwards. I’m just looking forward to warmer weather for all the floaty dresses and flip flops. Ultimate comfort!

Emma  x

I’m not going to lie, this has been a tough week. Those stomach pains are still lingering and my nausea returned with a vendetta; cue Monday meltdown!

I had an antenatal appointment on Monday (everything running smoothly) and got to hear this little ones heartbeat; he or she is proving to be an energetic little wriggler already!

Once we’d got home and Jon was about to go to work for the evening, I started to feel really unwell and couldn’t move without feeling sick. At 17 weeks I hoped I was over nausea, but that definitely wasn’t the case early on this week.

I hadn’t slept great on Sunday night either, so a mixture of tiredness, hormones and sickness led to one of those marathon crying sessions; you know the kind, where you cry on and off for a few hours whenever anyone asks if you’re okay. I even roped my lovely brother in to get Daisy a Happy Meal for tea (the sickness was real guys!).

Thankfully, Tuesday was a little better and I’ve only had mild nausea in the evenings again. I even managed to wolf down this bad boy that Jon brought home (he knows the way to my heart!).Apart from nausea, everything else has been pretty normal and I can feel this little babe more and more everyday. Daisy has started looking at my growing bump regularly and telling me that I have a baby in there too; she’s going to be such a good big sister.We have a weekend full of celebrations now as it’s Jon’s birthday on Monday, so there’s lots of food and family time on the cards. Hope you all have a lovely week guys!

Emma x