So, we’ve been a family of four for a month now and honestly, it’s weird to think of Zac not being here. He’s slipped into our life so seamlessly, it’s like he’s always been here. I thought a lot about the impact another little one would make and wondered how Daisy would be, but she’s taken to her big sister duties like a champ.

Nappy change? Daisy’s got the wipes. Zac’s crying? She declares he “needs a feed”. When we tell her to talk to him she always leads with “Hello Zac, I’m your big sister.” She introduces him to anyone who crosses our path, literally bursting with pride. I swear she’s been high on life since he arrived.As for the main man himself, Zac is such a chilled little guy. He can sleep through the loudest episodes of Peppa Pig, will happily lay there watching Daisy busying around and has been smiling from the start. He’s just starting to find his voice, making those adorable baby noises and doesn’t stop wriggling when he’s awake. Jon has had a good break from work which has been lovely, not just for an extra pair of hands but to enjoy some family time. Daisy is off school for the summer now and it’s been great having Jon home to still take her out and about, while I catch up on sleep after the night feeds. I can’t remember ever having this much time together as a family, and it’s been the perfect start to our new adventure as a four.

Emma x

He’s here! HE! I can’t believe we finally know that there was a little boy in there all along (although we were totally convinced it was a boy from the start; he was a troublemaker from day one!).

If you’ve read my last pregnancy update you’ll know that I was having some problems with elevated blood pressure. After six visits to the hospital maternity unit to be monitored, a plan was finally put in place to induce me on Wednesday 4th July, two days before my due date – I can’t tell you how happy I was to know that I wouldn’t be going potentially two weeks overdue!

At 4pm on the 4th I was given a propess pessary in the hope it would bring on labour. I didn’t want to pin too much on it as it isn’t guaranteed to work, but by 11pm I was having regular contractions and at midnight my waters broke, half way through watching Jaws may I add; maybe it was all the scenic ocean shots?!

After getting to labour ward, the monitor showed that the baby’s heart rate kept dropping with my contractions and the staff weren’t happy with how slowly it was returning to normal. I was examined by Dr Smirnoff (yes, really!) who throughout the next few hours had to take some blood samples from the baby’s head, to test the oxygen levels. After the first examination (which was pretty rough) he recommended me having an epidural for the pain.

Unfortunately, the epidural wasn’t fully effective and I still had feeling in my right hand side. I was dilating at a good speed though and after a few hours was up to eight centimetres. After another examination, Dr Smirnoff advised us that the baby wasn’t fully in position which was going to make delivery difficult. He left the room to speak with a consultant and within minutes the room was chaotic.

Up to this point, we had been extremely well informed of everything that was going on and the staff were really chilled out. This probably added to the panic that we then felt, as there seemed to be a real emergency to get me to theatre for a section. My midwife Kara, said “things are going to go a bit quick now” and boy did they. Jon was thrown a set of scrubs and I was wheeled from the room, leaving my poor mother sat thinking the worst.

Even though you’d do anything to ensure your baby is safe and well, I was so scared in that moment. The thought of an emergency section terrified me. Add to that the urgency from the staff and the fact that I had laboured to eight centimetres for what felt like no reason now, I was a blubbering mess by the time we got to theatre.

Jon was bundled into a recovery room while I was given a spinal and examined again (don’t go looking for dignity around here guys!). Legs in stirrups and my knees pushed up so close to my face, I’m fairly sure I hadn’t been this flexible since I was in the womb myself. My esteemed Russian friend now popped his head up an announced “fully dilated!” which was met with cheers from around the room; I didn’t need the section after all.

Jon was dragged back into the room and with three pushes (and an episiotomy and ventouse) Zachary Taylor Lewis was born. Weighing 7lbs 10.5oz, he was lighter than his sister and lighter than the growth scans had predicted. He has long limbs, dark hair and lots of peach fuzz over his back; truly a little monkey already!Zac has slipped seamlessly into family life and we honestly can’t imagine life without him now. Daisy introduces her “little brother, Zac” to anyone who’ll listen and is proving to be the best big sister already. It honestly feels like yesterday that she was this small, so we’re trying to soak up these blurry newborn days as much as we can. We feel so lucky to have such a beautiful little family and can’t wait to start having adventures as a four.

Emma x

facetune_18-06-2018-10-47-16I posted a while back about our plans to update Daisy’s bedroom before the baby arrives (you can read a bit about it here). Well, we FINALLY got it finished recently and I couldn’t love it more! It had always been a bit dark and moody, in spite of all the pink, glitter and girliness, so I wanted to make it a lot lighter.facetune_18-06-2018-11-07-57We started by painting the whole room white (just your basic trade pot of white paint, nothing fancy!). Straight away, the room was bigger and brighter. We updated Daisy to a new big girl bed from the mothership that is Ikea (I would highly recommend these day beds if you have the space). It’s a single bed as standard with two stacked mattresses, but pulls out to a double. It’s already proved handy for any guests and for weekend sleepovers, with a movie and snacks. It also has three huge drawers for storage; I changed the drawer pulls to some jute knot ones I found in TKMaxx.facetune_18-06-2018-11-06-02I found these super cute printables on Etsy and sprayed some metal shelves gold to pop a little against the white walls. I used some cushion covers I already had to make the bed cosy and more of a settee during the day. Plain white bedding means I can swap out the cushions and throws anytime to change things up a bit.facetune_18-06-2018-10-53-40I found this amazing peacock chair on Gumtree for £20 and updated the £25 Ikea Rast chest of drawers with a splash of yellow paint and some gorgeous drawer pulls from Homebargains. I also painted the inside of the door in the same yellow.facetune_18-06-2018-10-50-21We moved Daisy’s play kitchen to her room to give her a bit more space in the playroom and it’s worked great. She plays with it far more now, as it’s separate from her other toys. It may also have something to do with the new bits and pieces I got for it, including tea towels, utensils and a little dish brush.facetune_18-06-2018-11-02-34It’s such a sunny space now and feels like summer even on the rainiest days. Daisy loves spending time in there, playing, reading and watching the sheep and horses on the mountain out of her window. I’m still considering a feature wall of some sort, but for now I’m so, so pleased with it.facetune_18-06-2018-10-43-40facetune_18-06-2018-10-45-30facetune_18-06-2018-10-58-28facetune_18-06-2018-10-54-07facetune_18-06-2018-11-05-09

Emma  x

All hail maternity leave! I’m finally off work and couldn’t be happier. I’ve been struggling for a few weeks now and sitting at a desk all day certainly hasn’t helped. Add to that the hotter weather and my feet have swollen to Kim K in those plastic shoes levels – what was she thinking?! I’ve had my blood pressure checked regularly and have been keeping an eye out for any signs of preeclampsia but so far, all is okay.I’ve had a nasty ear infection for the last week which has disrupted my sleep (even more!) but with some antibiotic spray from the doctor, it’s starting to feel a little better thankfully. I’ve pulled a muscle in my stomach too, probably from only being able to lie on one side because of my ear; honestly feel like I’m falling apart! My midwife gave me a check over this week though and confirmed that the baby is low down and engaged!I’ve felt a few twinges with some low down cramps but nothing constant just yet, so for the foreseeable you’ll be able to find me bouncing on a gym ball, whilst eating curry and copious amounts of pineapple. I’ve got a growth scan tomorrow, so we’ll know a little more about whether I’ll be induced or left naturally for now. Whatever happens, we’re in the home stretch now! Emma x

I haven’t posted an update for a while now. To be honest, I haven’t felt like writing anything over the past few weeks. If you follow me on Instagram, you’ll know we’ve had a tough time lately as a family.

A few weeks back, we lost my lovely Nana Mary. She had advanced dementia and in the end it was honestly a blessing. Sadly just the morning after her funeral, her husband Grandpa Colin passed away peacefully in his sleep.

He was 88 and hadn’t been well lately himself, but it was such a shock to come so quickly and while we were all still emotionally raw following Nan’s funeral. The past few weeks have been some of the toughest.

It’s no surprise that I feel emotionally drained at the moment, but I haven’t felt great physically either. At my antenatal appointments, my bump has measured over where it should be. I’ve had a glucose test to check for gestational diabetes, which came back normal and we’re now waiting for a growth scan.I’ve had the worst nausea ever and some swelling ‘down there’ (no real life over here guys, it’s all the glamour!) which is really disrupting my sleep. My bump feels super tight all the time and my energy is a thing of the past. For the next few weeks, I’ll be having as much rest as possible and trying to relax my body as there’s still a way to go yet!Apart from all the crappiness, this little babe is still so active and is constantly letting me know how good the party is in there. Some of the movements are so strong, I feel like this little one could come out crawling and babbling away already!

Another weird side effect I’ve had is melasma; a skin discolouration that’s common in pregnancy. I’ve actually had it for a few years now, which may have been caused by the pill, but it’s spread a little more the past few weeks. It’s now faintly lining my top lip, as well as extra patches along my forehead, cheekbones and nose. It doesn’t bother me, in fact I quite like it. It’s a kind of sun kissed look without sitting in the sun!I’m starting my maternity leave on Monday and I’m determined to enjoy these last few weeks as much as possible. We’re going to get ourselves in gear and sort all the essentials out over the next couple of days, starting with giving Daisy’s cot a well needed lick of paint. Not long left now!

Emma x